Dorothy
Hi Dorothy,
No love, your parents didn't punish you by leaving you, what they did there was simply the natural order of things, but I guess to you it felt exactly like that....punishment.
The very fact that by reading your words you still love and miss them is surely a good thing, I truly feel that the worst indictment any parent could have is to neither be loved nor missed, that thought for me would be the worst of all Hells.
My dad (as you may have worked out from my writings) wasn't the greatest Father around but he was my Dad,
I've tried to work out over the years why he was the way he was but to date, I cant understand it, the only conclusion I can draw is that he saw himself trapped by a wife and 7 children, I guess for him all he saw was the emptiness of today and the dread of endless tomorrows, with that in mind I can begin to understand why he followed his twin pursuits of Gambling and Drinking,
But did he punish us? no..I dont think he gave us a second thought and THAT for me is the greatest betrayal, not the fact he died.
Draw comfort in the knowledge you WERE loved Dorothy, that was their greatest gift to you, far better than the Sun, the Moon and the Stars that my Father told me he'd leave me.
You see, the problem with Celestial bodies is they always stay just that little bit out of touch.
When I was young,
I lived in the City
The Stars were my friend,
I cannot answer why,
Now I am old,
I live out in the country
And Heaven is so high,
I cannot reach the sky.